4 thoughts on “I don’t wish to be everything to everyone…

  1. Since your return, and this comment is after reading your next post (Do you feel understood and fully accepted? and the comments are off so I felt the need quite strongly to make a comment), your energy has shifted quite profoundly.
    In fact I feel that I am no longer speaking to who you were but an ‘other’…like you have ‘let go’ and instead of leaving this world you have stayed on for ???
    I felt it at your return but it didn’t register properly until the next post, that you are teaching something…and…also looking for something?
    I’ve reread your about page and you say you were a teacher but I am referring to another type of teaching, not your usual ‘school’ lessons.
    Please forgive if any offense is taken, or for that matter that it is any of my business, but it is not that often that I feel something this strong 😀 Mark

    • Otrazhenie says:

      Thanks for your comment, Mark. I used to be a teacher a long time ago and I felt I was a pretty useless one then – I was lacking life experience then and I had no children of my own to be able to truly feel and understand those little (and not so little) beings… I described my teaching experience in one of my old posts at https://otrazhenie.wordpress.com/2012/08/10/oh-girls/

      I do not know why I write and often I do not know in advance what I’m going to write about. It just comes to me and when it comes, I just need to splash it out…. I’m just a reflection of people I meet and everything I see, hear, feel or read…. Often I even don’t know whether what I feel is me or just a reflection of other people’s feelings and things I read…. I know that sounds weird. I tried to describe this at https://otrazhenie.wordpress.com/2014/05/24/can-you-feel-another-person/

      I don’t know why I stopped blogging for a few years – it was not deliberate. I just suddenly had nothing to say… It stopped coming… And then it just started again… Not sure whether it is teaching or not, or whether I’m searching for something… As long as my posts make my readers’ lives easier, happier and more fulfilling, I’m glad… I would be sad if any of my posts made someone feel worse or made their life harder…

      Funnily enough, I don’t even know why comments were disabled on my last post… It was not deliberate either… I got them enabled now 😊

      Namaste 🙏🏽

      • Usually those ‘rest’ times are to go through something within. Your return shows that, and more importantly you are teaching from that place. Many of your posts can be quite profound from a spiritual, practical and life perspective.
        And on that spiritual side your words are coming ‘through’ from that side, and this can only happen when you go through or resolve something within yourself. And usually our fears that we drag kicking and screaming through life.
        As for being a bad teacher, are you kidding me? This teaching is a truth, an inner truth of what we are really behind the bills, work and day to day living. Once you go through a fear and finally understand it, your higher self / spirit / God passes stuff on to you (its just called a ‘knowing’ because it is just there suddenly and off you go to write, mind you, some actually hear voices), and the urge to pass it on, whether it is like on here blogging or just to family, friends or strangers, the urge to do so usually just comes at the right time. The trick is to relax and just let it happen. I used to ‘try’ to make it come through, I may as well have stuck a wall up 😀
        And you couldn’t make anyone feel worse at all if you are coming from your truth, that inner knowing is as truthful as you’ll get. Mind you, again, while I was ‘trying’ to do it way back when, I would get in the way and it wouldn’t come through properly and I would get in the way by writing that truth but not fluently or so it was an easy, comfortable read. I just had to let the ‘urge’ have its head and let it flow.
        Thank you very much for your reply, I am at rest now so whatever was needed to happen has occurred. That sometimes happens from my healing (spirit) to share something like my comment to you. I ‘know’ it has touched something but I cannot see it and sometimes the receiver doesn’t either, or does later.
        Maybe you are going to teach something else…life, real life to an easier (older) batch of students who would really enjoy and appreciate what your ‘heart knows’. They would have enough wisdom by now to really ‘hear’ what you are saying. Even the posts on those very heartfelt war stories are quite profound. Sharing those stories can be a very healing thing for those older who have been among those times, allowing a talk and release of things that have been tied up inside for a very long time.
        Anyway, I thank you again, it was great to ‘touch base’ with a fellow healer, may your journey ever be through your heart ❤️

      • Otrazhenie says:

        Thanks, Mark, for your kind and wise words…

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